Surrendering to God’s Will Is Not Easy

By Christopher Lenart, a parishioner at Ss. Peter and Paul Parish, Naperville, who is posting once a month, every month, on this blog, writing about faith-related matters, To contact Christopher, email him at clenart@comcast.net. To learn more about him, go to his website: https://www.disabilityawareness.us/

Ever feel like everything you do is useless? It’s like you put hours of work into something and when you finish it, nobody cares about it. You say to yourself: “God, why do I put so much time and money in something that nobody wants to use?” I’m going through this right now because I created an online course for a class. I finished it last week, and it premiered on May 1. 

I wrote people whom I thought would be interested in the course a couple of days before the premiere. There was one person who showed interest in it. I thought: “God, why did I take this class in the first place?” This was on my mind for a while. It was not the response to the project that I completed. 

I have a habit of doing things that I think will be good for my life. God doesn’t work that way. He allows us to do things that we want, but His goal for us is to be with Him in heaven forever. That is our goal too, but we want something before heaven. For me, I don’t really know what I want, but I feel like I want satisfaction for something. When I worked, I was satisfied when I finished a project and saw the users using it. Now I am trying to look for the satisfaction like before, but it is not there. I think if I didn’t have Cerebral Palsy, I would compete in sports. I don’t know how good I would be. 

That is what we need in our faith life — the wanting, the drive to succeed. With God, we will have the satisfaction or not at the end. Yes, it might be decades before we get satisfaction. In today’s society, we need to know everything now. “Does she like me or not?” We just finished our first date 10 minutes ago.

Or, did I get the job that I interviewed yesterday? These might sound odd, but we all asked these questions and many other silly questions before. That is how life is now. 

We have to let God take over our lives. I don’t mean that we should be robots, but to be satisfied with whatever happens in our lives. If we do that, our lives will be less stressful and finally realize what will satisfy our lives for once and for all.